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thelinesoflearning) wrote2013-09-21 02:04 am
thelinesoflearning) wrote2013-09-21 02:04 am
Identity stuff and things.
1. I made the religion journal -- it's at letthechangecome so, while nothing's likely to get posted till October, feel free to friend it if you're interested.
2. I am coming around to think about changing my name again? I'm not sure it's gonna happen, but I keep drifting back to it. I have no idea what else I'd want to call myself, either. But some part of me really wants to switch things out.
3. I keep thinking about pronouns. It started with me having a severe issue with going out today and knowing I was being seen as female, and then it swung around because... I didn't really want to be a they either? And to be honest, I don't usually feel like a they. 'They' only really feels right when I find myself feeling supremely female or male.
The problem with this is that the pronoun that does feel comfortable, better than anything else I've found, is it. And I know people aren't comfortable using that? I understand the reasoning -- I know it brings up bad associations for people, that people with nontraditional gender presentation have had it used as an insult, that it's seen as dehumanizing people. None of this changes the fact that it feels right for me. But I don't want to make people -- people with similar feelings to mine, people in the same community as me -- uncomfortable by asking them to use it either. And. I don't know. I'm not looking for advice, just thinking out 'loud'. It's been on my mind today.
4. And because apparently thinking this much about gender isn't enough, I've spent today looking at otherkin things and becoming less and less sure whether or not I am one. I... don't know where this is going yet, I really just don't.
5. We leave for Disney on Sunday! Probably won't really be around tomorrow, and then I will be out of contact till the 29th, maybe the 30th.
letthechangecome so, while nothing's likely to get posted till October, feel free to friend it if you're interested.2. I am coming around to think about changing my name again? I'm not sure it's gonna happen, but I keep drifting back to it. I have no idea what else I'd want to call myself, either. But some part of me really wants to switch things out.
3. I keep thinking about pronouns. It started with me having a severe issue with going out today and knowing I was being seen as female, and then it swung around because... I didn't really want to be a they either? And to be honest, I don't usually feel like a they. 'They' only really feels right when I find myself feeling supremely female or male.
The problem with this is that the pronoun that does feel comfortable, better than anything else I've found, is it. And I know people aren't comfortable using that? I understand the reasoning -- I know it brings up bad associations for people, that people with nontraditional gender presentation have had it used as an insult, that it's seen as dehumanizing people. None of this changes the fact that it feels right for me. But I don't want to make people -- people with similar feelings to mine, people in the same community as me -- uncomfortable by asking them to use it either. And. I don't know. I'm not looking for advice, just thinking out 'loud'. It's been on my mind today.
4. And because apparently thinking this much about gender isn't enough, I've spent today looking at otherkin things and becoming less and less sure whether or not I am one. I... don't know where this is going yet, I really just don't.
5. We leave for Disney on Sunday! Probably won't really be around tomorrow, and then I will be out of contact till the 29th, maybe the 30th.
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