Identity stuff and things.

[thelinesoflearning]

1. I made the religion journal -- it's at letthechangecome so, while nothing's likely to get posted till October, feel free to friend it if you're interested.

2. I am coming around to think about changing my name again? I'm not sure it's gonna happen, but I keep drifting back to it. I have no idea what else I'd want to call myself, either. But some part of me really wants to switch things out.

3. I keep thinking about pronouns. It started with me having a severe issue with going out today and knowing I was being seen as female, and then it swung around because... I didn't really want to be a they either? And to be honest, I don't usually feel like a they. 'They' only really feels right when I find myself feeling supremely female or male.
The problem with this is that the pronoun that does feel comfortable, better than anything else I've found, is it. And I know people aren't comfortable using that? I understand the reasoning -- I know it brings up bad associations for people, that people with nontraditional gender presentation have had it used as an insult, that it's seen as dehumanizing people. None of this changes the fact that it feels right for me. But I don't want to make people -- people with similar feelings to mine, people in the same community as me -- uncomfortable by asking them to use it either. And. I don't know. I'm not looking for advice, just thinking out 'loud'. It's been on my mind today.

4. And because apparently thinking this much about gender isn't enough, I've spent today looking at otherkin things and becoming less and less sure whether or not I am one. I... don't know where this is going yet, I really just don't.

5. We leave for Disney on Sunday! Probably won't really be around tomorrow, and then I will be out of contact till the 29th, maybe the 30th.

Comments

[avia]

I'm not uncomfortable with using "it" or any other choice of pronoun, if it helps in any way.

[thelinesoflearning]

<3 You are awesome. And I appreciate it.

[avia]

I actually would be interested if you want to talk privately (okay if you don't of course!) about what it means to you. I have another friend who has "it" pronouns and I found its explanation very interesting? But of course if you're not sure or just don't want to, it's totally up to you~ Just saying that I would listen.

[thelinesoflearning]

I would have no problem talking about it, but I'm not sure I have much to say, to be honest? I'd be happy to try but I'm not sure I can come up with anything more indepth than 'it feels right'. XD

I'll see about getting in contact when I get home, as I'm about to be out of contact for a week.

[bookblather]

I sort of feel like-- I mean, keeping in mind that I am not remotely a member of that community, being as I am cisgendered-- I sort of feel like you have the right to have the pronouns that make YOU feel comfortable.

[thelinesoflearning]

<3 I'm trying to remember that. It's something I'd give anybody else, but I'm bad at doing it for myself. And I wouldn't ask someone who had serious issues with it to do so -- I know a couple of people who probably would -- but.... Eh, I don't know. Too tired to give this a proper conclusion. XD

[sharpeningthebones]

You know I will call you whatever you'd like, love. <3

[thelinesoflearning]

And this among many, many others is one of the reasons I love you. <3

At some point if I can come up with names I might ramble at you, I'm just seriously lacking on thoughts as to what I'd switch to right now.

[sharpeningthebones]

Ramble away. <3333 Either about how you have no idea or how you have some or...Or anything. <3333 I don't mind you doing whatever you need to figure out who or what you are.

[thelinesoflearning]

I'm sure you will get rambled to about it eventually. Most things you do. <3333333

[silveradept]

Subscribed, and use what name and pronouns work for you. We'll adjust, because we want you to be comfortable.

As for the otherkin-ness, it's your decision on that. But we're here to listen through that, if you want.

[thelinesoflearning]

I appreciate it, I really do. You are awesome and I may take you up on that offer eventually. Right now I'm still trying to sort through things in my brain enough to be able to turn them into words. <3